I'm not even sure when it happened. But over the last two months I've been eating poorly and not exercising at all. Sure I've been active but I haven't been doing anything that will tone me up. And now that I'm about to be apart of 2 events that make you completely and totally aware of your body composition, I'm freaking out. Because I know better than to let myself go like that and because I'm so mad at myself for doing that. It's like I kept putting it off because I thought I had time, but now here we are and it's the middle of May! I swear I blinked and 6 months went by.
But here's the other thing, it's not too late to start NOW. And that's what I keep telling myself. So many times I find myself throwing in the towel before even getting started because I already feel overwhelmingly behind. And that's exactly where I am now... feeling overwhelmed at the thought of getting into a swimsuit and feeling a sense of regret for ruining all the hard work I put in previously. On the one hand it seems easier to not start because in my mind I won't be where I could have been by the time we head to the beach. But that is so so so silly, because if I start eating right and exercising now, I'll be better off in 6 weeks than where I am now. I've got to let that mindset go. I can't be drowning in regret and expect to get anywhere.
So that's what I'm doing. I'm starting now. I call it dieting, but what it is, is making healthy food choices day in and day out. It's exercising consistently. It's making a lifestyle change. Because I want to be healthy forever, not just a couple months out of the year. It's discipline. And sometimes the results take awhile, but that's okay.
And it's never too late to get started. Or in my case, re-started.
"For the moment, all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11